We are so easily distracted. We “plan” to do something, but run out of time (or energy) and it doesn’t get done. We decide we will not do something, but lo and behold (a colloquialism from my past) we do it anyway. We are a mess.
The Apostle Paul expressed the same frustration in Romans 7. His frustration produced the exclamation: “Who will deliver me from this body of death?” His answer to his own questions was, of course, Jesus Christ!
No indication that Paul wallowed around in self-pity or self-abuse as a result of his “bad” choices and actions. He ran to Jesus and trusted Him. It’s not that Paul wasn’t sorry that he had been a disappointment and had personally failed to live up to God’s standards. The thing is that Paul trusted the blood of Jesus and God’s promise that He loved Paul anyway!
Being an “All In” disciple of Jesus isn’t about performance. It is about trusting and, therefore, obeying. We aren’t just to trust Him in salvation and living. We are trust His promises and relax into His love.